Tuesday, October 30, 2007 ♥
Ive Stopped Searching..Coz Ive Finally Found Him..
I think I get his message... I am his friend. Tho, Im not very happy about it... at least I know my answer. My soul downcast for a while...but Ill move on. I hope so. My mountain is a plain now. So is my heart.
I need a break.
Im going to look for a pt job to earn more income. At least I can work during my off days and not park my ass at home.
Haaaa, update again lata... gtg work my ass out of my office.
Irin Chenelle Suzanne & Christopher Sean * 8 May 2008 * ♥
Monday, October 29, 2007 ♥
Ive Stopped Searching..Coz Ive Finally Found Him..
I try to smile so the hurt wont show Tell everybody I was glad to see you go But the tears just won't go away Loneliness found me, looks like its here to stay I know that I ought to find someone new But all I found is myself always thinking of you.....Sounds familiar??? ... Yeah its from my new bloggy song. Exactly how im feeling now... Emo, Emo, Emo.. Just let it be me. Ill be fine after tonite. Gonna enjoy my off day tomorrow. Retail therapy maybe. Haiz..I dunno.. just wait and see...I need a shoulder to cry on...I need a pillar of strength...Jesus I need you.I feel like going MIA again. Just let go of everything Im having now.Jesus I need you.I need you badly.
Irin Chenelle Suzanne & Christopher Sean * 8 May 2008 * ♥
Sunday, October 28, 2007 ♥
Ive Stopped Searching..Coz Ive Finally Found Him..
Hey, Its been quite a while since I last blog. Been busy with my work.
Hey, I made it to the first service today..Wee Wee Wee.. Its an achievement..lol
I read my daily devotional today..
God will deliver you from all your troubles. (2 Timothy 4:18) But deliverance is actually not the best that God has for you because it implies that you are in trouble. God’s best for you is the place where no trouble or evil can touch you. And with God’s help, you will come to that place because the Bible says, “He shall deliver you in six troubles, yes, in seven no evil shall touch you.” AMEN~I like it. No weapon against me shall prosper.
Its been coming to a month..we have no communication. perhaps its clearly saying tt ...move on. Im still holding on. Why??? I have no faith in it???
Its written tt if you say it to the mountain, believing it with all your heart of what youve said..you will move the mountain away. Pray for me. My mountain will be moved. In Jesus mighty name.
Amen~I need your prayers~Abundantly.
Irin Chenelle Suzanne & Christopher Sean * 8 May 2008 * ♥
Tuesday, October 16, 2007 ♥
Ive Stopped Searching..Coz Ive Finally Found Him..
Hey...whoever you are..stop spamming my taggy box. Tag else where you idiot. Im not a sex freak.. I DUN NEED SEX EDUCATION IN MY BLOG.
Two Words...
FUGGED OFF.
Irin Chenelle Suzanne & Christopher Sean * 8 May 2008 * ♥
Saturday, October 13, 2007 ♥
Ive Stopped Searching..Coz Ive Finally Found Him..
Arrggghh....Im having fever and working rite now..can you imagine it??? Having stone over my head and welcoming guest... Arrggghhh.... Im really sick this time. And I dread it. Might be seeing doc tonite...and guess what..Im working morning again tomorrow. How fantastic. I tot of just take MC at least 2 - 3 days and sleep at home... Can I???
Finishing work soon and I tot of going to church for last service. but my sister not picking up her phone. Called home and found out that Shes sleeping at home like a pig. Looks like Im not going for today service then. People, pray for me... I need lots of prayer...I wanna move on.
I serve this guest today..Kept talking to me in Malay... I really dunno how to ans him... I ans in Eng he said dunno...malay... Duhz... My malay sux lah...I can listen but for me to converse back a little diff. Im tongue tite... I may look malay but hey... English please...~!!!Hmmpz.
Irin focus Irin...Dun sway....
Ill work and work and not think abt it.
Life is great even without him... dont you agree??? Daddy God has a better one for me and is preparing me to handle him... Wait on the Lord... and he will surely deliver abundantly not in Quantity but in Quality.
JESUS IS LORD.
=))
Irin Chenelle Suzanne & Christopher Sean * 8 May 2008 * ♥
Friday, October 12, 2007 ♥
Ive Stopped Searching..Coz Ive Finally Found Him..
If you knew me...Im always screaming my heart out....Yelling my lungs out... SOME PEOPLE DESERVE TO BE SHOT... why is it they are sooo free and gotta nothing to do??? Keep on complaining and complaining abt other people??? I HATE THEM...I SWEAR I HATE THEIR SIGHT. IT IS IRRITATING....Aarrrrrrrrrhggggggghhhhhhh~
Im left with 2 more days before my fate is seal... Looking at it now...I guess I have to forget about him. My eyes are gonna be like goldfish soon...MC is calling me. Im gonna drown my sorrow....soon... Irin-san... is lifeless.. for awhile. "AGAIN??" . dats what my elder sis said... Im a goner.. secretly in love with someone who is not even looking at me. Irin Irin..you deserve to be shot.
Somebody shoot me... Im wrong to work in Sentosa.. I should not even come back to Singapore.
Haiz... =((
Irin Chenelle Suzanne & Christopher Sean * 8 May 2008 * ♥
Sunday, October 7, 2007 ♥
Ive Stopped Searching..Coz Ive Finally Found Him..
Just came back from church...Urmmmh.. I feel the life man... Its great having Jesus around.. you know that you be greatly loved no matter what you do. Today pastor Prince talk about grace...everything under grace...wow... I feel good after hearing it...okok..I cried as well. I put my financial under grace coz God will sponsor me to go back to Canada. I put my heart under grace coz God loves me too much to make me heartbroken. I put AHEM under grace coz God will lead him the way. I put my 2 supervisors under grace coz say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence(my 2 supervisors are) He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.- Amen~!!! You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.~ Amen~!!! If you make the Most High your dwelling-- even the Lord, who is my refuge-- then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent. For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent. "Because he loves me," says the Lord, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. She will call upon me, and I will answer her; I will be with her in trouble, I will deliver her and honor her. With long life will I satisfy IRIN SUZANNE and show her my salvation." Amen. God is good. Oh God forgive my anger...some people just deserve to be shot. Mercy mercy... irin.
Irin Chenelle Suzanne & Christopher Sean * 8 May 2008 * ♥
Saturday, October 6, 2007 ♥
Ive Stopped Searching..Coz Ive Finally Found Him..
Im so affected by it believe me... I just wish I have the courage to tell you how much feelings I have for you. Im trying to run away most of the times but you seems to lead me on. Im so afraid....what if Ive fallen for you?? My greatest fear is falling in love. What if you tell me...hey...im kidding...i can just go and kill myself lah...I think I already am....falling..
Lord, show me his true colours.... I dun wanna be lead on... If he is not for me...take the desire away from me. I just wanna move on. If I carry on like this... Im afraid my work will be affected once again... Lord.. I need your wisdom... your abundant of favours surrounding me like a shield.
Tell me what should I do ??? Should I stay or should I go....
I need you......
Irin Chenelle Suzanne & Christopher Sean * 8 May 2008 * ♥
Monday, October 1, 2007 ♥
Ive Stopped Searching..Coz Ive Finally Found Him..
I wanna my photo... But he still havvent email me..... Aarrrrrrrggggghhhhh...
LORD.........I WANNA MY PHOTO................. WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....
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Im still looking for cheap airline ticket to Aust... any rec anyone??
I need a break...
And I miss him.
Irin Chenelle Suzanne & Christopher Sean * 8 May 2008 * ♥
